What the h*e*c*k* am i doing here?

 As the only person currently running this entire “H*E*C*K*” operation, I'm probably gonna be ‘doing’ a lil bit of whatever the f*** I want, along with some other spiritual obligations too. To be honest, I kinda feel strange about that because I've never really inhabited any kinda space irl or digital where I'm responsible for 100% of the rules and decisions that are made. On one hand, I'm ULTRA grateful that I have the mind and ability to platform my thoughts, ideas, and actions in a cohesive and real way, but I can't lie like I don't feel the pressure of not being able to blame any kind of external forces if this whole korporate cosplay thing collapses. I try not to think too much about failure though, but more about how I can find new ways to define my own success, which helps a lot in the “doing whatever the f*** I want” part of thangs. 

In regard to this part of the site, I want this to be a space where I don't have to really think too hard about what goes here, which is gonna mostly show up as me picking a topic and word vomiting about it until my stomach stops hurting. Some people might call this “automatic writing” but the “Psycography” term speaks to me more cause it sounds like the title of a nu-metal song or an Insane Accountant Posse junt. Sometimes I'll try and put together more cohesive think-pieces, but don't count on too much of that. I really want this to be a space where I can speak candidly without having to put on much of a performance, so I can save all the empirical integrity for my grad school papers. With this being said, I'm not sure if all of the writing here will be “good” per se, or the most well researched, or the most conceptually conclusive, but I can assure you that it will exist and it will slowly endoctrinate you into doing some dumb s*** like letting love live within your being or warming up your milk before eating cereal.